Scared&Confused

Yes, i'm SCARED of my N-Level result and CONFUSED about her. What should i do? N-Level results just around the corner. 18th of Dec. Hmm. No mood acctually. My heart is soo heavy right now. Thinking bout her. Called her and guest what? Abng Dan picked up. Was supprised to her a guys voice. So i peng-ed anyhow lah. Wanna ask her tomorrow work anot. blabla. Rubbish. Ask lots of question. Abang Dan caring i see? Caring, kiss my ass scum up fu**er!! Up Yours. If you wanna be caring and be like an elder brother then act like one lah. Please. Sorry you. I'm just kinda sick of hearing your fuc*ed up stories. My eyes had been already hurt enough by looking at you that day. Did i regret knowing you? Did i? My heart is too heavy to carry on. With Abng Dan around no way i can be yours. GET ME? I still do not know if you have forgotten your previous guy, i don't know. I wanna ask her a few questions just now but i dont feel like asking. She was taunting me to tell but i just could'nt. I find away or so. if you gonna do stupid stuff or use me well go think very well for yourself. All the lies i had to tell to mama just to give you my care n concern. So yah, go think for yourself. I love you but i do not know if i should continue anot. Everynight i have to worry about you so do not do things you should not do aites. Just not feeling normal. Its such a burdern.
haizzz.
(ps: to you guys who know but this, please help me. I dunnoe what to do.)


Barney.
I love you okays?