Friends

Eerrrmm.. Yah it just finished raining heavily. And I just munched on some snaks. ahhh.. OK. I dunnoe why I feel this way. I feel i have something to tell the world but it suddenly just slipped out lah. Today just is'nt my day ok. I feel lethargic like hell. Friends just are not with me I guess. Its whether I don't see or its just true that they are not there.

It feels like shit. And I really mean shit. Sometimes it also sucks eh if your stuck in between fights. Some people hate me being friends with this particular person, some do the opposite way. Actually I was not involve lah but I dont know why suddenly I was involve. Who should i side now. How? If i leave this matter out, both will hate me. And do want people hating you? I sure not. How am I to settle this? I dunnoe lah. Now its like I am involve and I'm making it more worst. It just sucks lah.

Society

Society is a bunch of people around us. And you see different society around us. And some people hate certain society. But acctaully I don't. Some people mistaken us for the bad. They just judge us buy the cover. Good-good religious people sometimes also look down on us. Is smoking or fighting etc. wrong?
No its not. Its just depends on which society we mix. Don't tell me everything you did was all perfect. I dont look down on junkies. I just know that its a wrong and illegal thing to take but I knw tht they just mixed around with the wrong society. Yah. I just wanna tell you people that I mix around with people which is MY KIND OF SOCIETY. And i hope you understand. I just don't learn from my parents but my friends too. And I admit tht some of the actions are wrong but I knw what I'm doing, I also admit that i mix around with the wrong society.

OK. And I feel thats just all lah. I just hate it when people look down on us!!

Can I ask you people something? Tag your answer on my tagboard.

If your in a fight with someone. Which would you choose??

1) Would you pretend to make others happy when your not?
2) Fight and get it over with?
3) Just ignore?

Yah I just leave that to you peeps to answer that cause sometimes this problem just bothers me. And its hurting me ah.
Help me ah. I dunnoe why must me go through this ah. I dunnoe. If forgetting seems to be the solution its as well difficult for me and for you. So what shall we do. Forgetting is difficult because we been through alot of things together. I dunnoe.

Bye<3
Young,Loud&Proud.
Help me.
I am hurt ah kays??
Love you Bella.


You Make Me Sick Sial Farah!!

I am sick to day sak!! As to day also got no silat. arghh!! I Hate You sak Farah. Mayb they didn't ruin me. Mayb its YOU. I hate writting about you in my blog you know? People also get sick and tired of reading your name in all the posts i posted. Haiz~ sorry maytes. I can just post about other things but, I just cannot get her name off my mind. Again i just fought with her. Its just sooooOOO super hard to forget about this situation.

Ok.OK. Da. I edited the past post.It was too violent to read. Okays! I was super mad last night bout Farah. I swear. I could have beaten up Roszy if she would have asked too many question but eventually she saw my ANGRY face and those EVIL words & backed off. Serious sey. I was out of my mind sey. I felt like punching someone in the face but i sabar giler sey. Yesterday was the worst ever day i had with Farah. I Sweared to her as if there was no tomorrow. I was talking like a MAT REP siak. Dont believe, ask Farah. Haha. Now she is the only one who knows how mad can i be.

But everything went to a stop after Farah started crying sey. Rabak!! I stoped talking like a MAT REP when i heard her cry soo bad. I am sorry for what i say to you yesterday Farah. We said everything. Expressed everything we all kept in our heart. taking each blow after another by each other. haiz~ I dont think you peeps out there wants to be in Farah position yesterday. We finally talked. Yes TALKED. Yes the real talk. Shouting at each other & solving it. I hope we don't fight again. I am not sure. I pray hard. I thightly cross my finger sey. I hope. N today Farah felt unwell because she cried so bad yesterday because of me sey.Arghhh. I dont want to do that again sey. I feel so bad sey hearing her weak "nenek" voice. Hehe. Soory ;) heheks. I donwant to fight anyore lahs.

To yayang Isabelle,

Yayang, sorry bout dat day. I was quite busy. I am sorry. I was pissed at my cadets when i was msging you. I was like also dead tired because the day before was sports day n after dat i must go tution. I am sorry. I am felling sick sey. nevermine its just a stupid flu. hehe. Love you kays ♥ I want to go out with you but i am too busy with school. Having remidial and tution. I am soory sey. You just study hard for your upcoming exam tau. Make your parents proud. and kak FarahnMe are ok i guess. I hope. Dont worry i'll love you. Hehe. ;)

Bye peeps.

Sorry Yayang&Farah

Love you both!?!?!

Young,Loud&Proud.

Peace!! heeee :)

Now I know who my friends are!

Ok. Lets not talk about da fite which stupidly happened. Yah. Just wanted to highlight what friends I have in my life. Something whch meant to me was taken away. I was taken off the Guard Of Honour. & dat was hard to acccept. My friends or so called brothers help me ALOT. I really appreciated it guys. Tis was how it started.


Thursday

Whacked a guy. Hard. Felt soo much better but yet had to faced the consequences. I thought it was just caning but it ended up being pulled from G.O.H. Zul, Heikal, Azmi & in told me to just carry on.

Friday Worst Friday the 13th.

Caning postponed cause that guy did not turned up. during recess, Fan Howe told me that Mr Rashid had pulled me out. I got angry and ask him to tell Mr Rashid to help me appeal with Mr sin(principal). After school I kept my fingers cross that Mr Sin puts me in the parade. Then Fan Howe came through the door and told me that i had to return my No. 1. I was den sad to hear that.

Rahman and the other sec4 overheard and they said this, "we the sec 4's are not goin in if Hafiz isn't with us." I was soo touch by them. This is what we call BrotherHood. Yah. We appealed alot of times. Happy faces turned to sad and teary faces. The most incredible thing is that some of them even cry for me. That just shows how much I mean to them. Thnx alot guys. I told them that the only thing for you guys to make me happy is to go on with the parade and make me proud. It was just hard to accept the consequenses. Yah.

Saturday 14 april, 14th Comendation day.

During the parade, I cried looking at my brothers. before that, we went out to breakfast together. You guys really mean alot to me. By being by myside. I didn't expect my frinds to be like this. Thnx alot guys for the wonderful parade. I felt as if my heart was with you guys. Thanx alot. Let this be a memory to our Greenview Ncc Unit. Brotherhood really plays an inportant part.

Yah thats all i want to share with you people out there. My brothers mean alot to me now. Without this problem, i dont know who my BROTHERS are. Thanx guys for MY parade. Thnx to: Hakim, Rahman, Syafie, Haziq, Riduwan, Mahdi & Adi. Thnx alot guys

And yah i'm kinda sad still cause i cnnt go out with my yayang. Isabell. Yah new name for you darling. I can only call you that. Heheh. Yup 2day is our 8 monts anniversarry. Thnx yayang for goin this far with me. Love you.


Bye-Bye.
Brothers of GVSS NCC Unit.
Thanx for the parade.
Love you yayang (8 months)
Young,Loud&Proud.






Sleepless&Stressful

I dunnoe sey what to write sey. Past post all about her. Like nothing better else to write or what Barney? Haiya. Cmne tk tulis sal die? Everyday I look at you sey. I dunnoe what are you thinking ah. Or mayb I dont want to know. Why sey, I know you care ah. But you act as if you dont do anymore. Sorry if I say this to you. I dont mean to hurt you ah. But like nothing else to think about sey. I REALLY in need of help now. Nvm. I just hope I get to talk to you lah. I got lots of things to tell you, you noe? ArgHH!! I dont want sey to talk bout you but, I dunnoe who I am & who r you lah.

Ermm Bella sayang, I'm here. Dont worry. I relly miss you. Its been a long time sey we never go out. I look forward sey to go out with you. Dont worry lah sayang. The reason why I write tis part is to tell you that i am here and i LOVE you lah kays? Its just that i am kinda lostnconfused here. If got time we go out kays.

Bye-Bye
Barney <3
Young,Loud& Proud