Why must this happen?

Why must this happen? I just woke up from bed asking myself this question. I just can't seem to close my eyes for the past few nights thinking about this problem. Well yah, YOU rite, just seem to enjoy i see. But I am stuck down here dont know what to do. :'( I wish Bella could just understand and help me. Haiz~ Yah if anyone is offended by the past few post, I am soo SORRY. Yes. SORRY. Even you!

I thought that last year was the last year that this things would have happen. But eventually not. Thinking of studying for this HOLIDAY but I just can't seem to concentrate. Why? Why? Yes why? I know i am blinded by my jealousy. Yes I know. For me to keep that jealousy is difficult. Sooner or later it will confirm explode out. Might as well I be honest then to pretend that I am actually okay right? i dunnoe bout you lah. I seem to be loosing this battle. What a loser. Hahks. Not to be ofended ah, but you got them to teman you right? Hah. Good for you lah.

I think for the next few post its gonna be EMOSHIT. So Brace urself. (MCM PAHAM). I think is true after all that I loose you 1day. Maybe to you its me who wanted to leave you. Yah. I dunnoe lah. && I am not proud telling the whole world that we fought. NO! NO! Its calling asking for help. I am all alone here. Can't you see? huh? I'am not out to hurt people too okays? Barney is a friendly purple dinosaur. Hah. Yah but seriously i am not out to hurt people. Serious. Its just my nature to blow off my steam. yah. Sometimes i want to ask god why am i born like this. But if you would think back rite, people around you are born with different personality. And this just makes the world go round.

I dunnoe. I dunnoe. I dunnoe. I dunnoe. I dunnoe. Alot of people told me to forget bout you. But do they even think how much you mean to me? They just don't know how close we are untill this happen. Its just difficult. Its supper difficult. & i know u dont care bout me already, but i still do aites? :) Yah now i know how you feel. Doing stupid stuffs also just brings me no where. Go on with life??? How??? Can some one lead me there?? After this thing happen rite people, I feel that suddenly i am all alone. All alone. But so called i started the fight so its up to me to handle this by myself. BY MYSELF. Anyway thnks Syafie n Gang for your concern but dont do it for me n hurt HER. DOnt. Its just between me and HER. Syaf just dont hurt her. Who knows she will be ur next bestfriend. Who knows right?



Bye.
THank you.
Cheers&Beers.